Brian's Journey with PTSD

I love Five Finger Death Punch. It helps to quiet the mind when it is all up in the air. Their song “I Refuse” resonates with me. I feel like I live life like it is a complete dream. Days I feel great, and then other days not so much. There are times that I feel like I am a complete zombie. Lost in my moments of PTSD. The memories of dead bodies, the fear, anxiety, hyperventilate, and the pain.

Just like in their song I wish I could just be woken up when it is all over. Unfortunately, I have live in a dream that I never wanted. I have to keep fighting, and expecting things to get better. The nightmares are constant, and just like everyone else I just wish they would stop. I wish they could be removed. Please wake me up when it is all over just as the song says in the Five Finger Death Punch song “I Refuse”. I am so tired of living this dream, especially when I have so much to live for.