I have not written in awhile. I have been working on some things for myself. I deal with a lot of memories as posted in an earlier post. I have been dealing with a lot of stress and low and behold that has its own interesting side effects.

Of course it is normal that my increased dreams and memories of the helicopter crash occur. I am used to that to a point. I definitely struggle with getting those memories uncontrolled, and my own response of my body to those feelings.

I have heard of flashbacks, and I have definitely dealt with them. However, I have been dealing with seeing things. More pinpointed I will actually see perceived dead bodies. This really got me going, and I wasn’t sure what was happening. My psychologist was out, and I wouldn’t see him for another few weeks. I did the next thing I could do and I ended up with an appointment with my psychiatrist. I let him know what was going on.

He asked me about stress. Life changes, etc. He then went on to tell me that I was having flash backs, and that I wasn’t going crazy. That was good to know, but now I have to deal with this. I definitely hate all the symptoms associated with PTSD, but now I have further work to do. I will see my psychologist this week to talk about these in further details.

Have you every experienced something similar? Since I am also starting to deal with this what types of coping mechanisms do you have?

I have learned over the many years to seek help with all of this, so if you are having problems make sure to seek professional help. It may not take everything away, but it definitely helps to reduce the affects of PTSD related symptoms.

I hope everyone has a good day, and I look forward to the discussions that we will have. I plan on trying to have specific topics, so hopefully it will help you and me to heal better. Take care of yourself.

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  1. the thing that helps me to stay in the now is to look at the walls, the windows, or the trees, touch them if I can. Realize that they are real and here and now. And like you said in one of your other blogs, breathe. I’ve learned to hide most of my trauma and triggers since childhood, but that is now unraveling, which means more dreams, day-mares & nightmares to deal with. I’ve taken comfort in reading the Psalms, because I am convinced that King David had PTSD as well; you can’t see that much as a warrior and not be effected by it. Which helps me focus on a positive future for myself. It’s a fight for sure.

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